I sit here at 8:30 pm on a Saturday night in my room listening to the ever calming sound of rain pounding on the roof. Even though I love the sound of rain (which is a good thing because we’re in the rainy season here in Johannesburg) I also sit here hoping that we don’t get too much rain on our kitchen floor from the leaky roof we discovered earlier this week. Life here on plot 64 has been quite interesting since my last blog.
Let me be real with you. These past two weeks may have been the hardest two weeks I’ve gone through so far on my journey in South Africa. Exactly a week ago, as I was talking to my family on the phone, my father told me of the death of Rev. Dr. Sam Dixon, the head of UMCOR. As many of you already know, he and two other men, Rev. Clinton Rabb and Rev. James Gulley were trapped for 55 hours under the ruins of Hotel Montana, a building that collapsed during the earthquake in Haiti. UMCOR is one of the main sponsors of SHADE, and Rev. Dixon was a big advocate of our organization. Sunday night, right before signing offline, we found that Rev. Rabb, although found alive, also passed away in a Florida hospital earlier that day. It was a long night as we stayed up crying, questioning, and reminiscing with one another. Although I was not close to Rev. Dixon, since his death (sadly) I have discovered what a great man he really was. Rev. Rabb, the husband of Rev. Suzanne Rabb, the former executive secretary of the young adult programs, led some of the sessions during our training. He was the head of the Volunteers in Mission program at GBGM. I was very close with Suzanne, and was very encouraged by Clint and Suzanne during training. If you have the time, I would really encourage you to go onto the GBGM website (http://gbgm-umc.org) to read the obituaries of Rev. Dixon and Rev. Rabb. This is a quote from Clint during one of our sessions that has served a great reminder to me here, which I hope I will never be quick to forget: “We are sent, not called to do something, but sent. We will know when we get there what we are called to do.” Please keep the families of Rev. Dixon and Rev. Rabb and the whole GBGM family in your prayers. After learning more about each of their lives and the impact they have had on the world, I have felt more honored to be serving with GBGM.
Life on the farm has had its ups and downs so far. We have a very nice sized house that we enjoy, but have noticed that it is not in as good of shape as we had thought when we first moved in. There are very minor things, not worth complaining about, that are being fixed slowly and I’m sure this will feel more like home as time goes on. The two hardest things to deal with right now are internet and transportation. Because we are out in the middle of nowhere, it is very hard to get a very strong connection with the portable modems we had in Cape Town, we would like to keep because it’s a very easy way for us to pay for our internet separately, but we haven’t been able to get to and MTN store that can put up a satellite for us that may be able to give us a stronger connection. Another trial of living where we are is that it isn’t very close to stores. The closest store is a small shopping center about a 15 min. drive away with a little “Friendly” grocery store, a movie rental place, a pharmacy, and a pizza shop. We have one five passenger car, not in the greatest condition, shared by seven people. The car is used to take us to work and we can try to reserve it ahead of time for our own personal use. This makes it very difficult when we need to go buy groceries, travel outside of here, or even go to church. Last Sunday, we were able to meet with our supervisor, Gail Coulson, who is in DRC right now, but stopped first in Johannesburg and will be returning here in the beginning of February. We talked with her about getting our own car here so that transportation would be a bit easier. She said that no other mission interns have owned cars before, but a lot of the placements are in places where public transportation is easily accessible, and this was mostly the case for us in Cape Town. She agrees that it would be very helpful for us to have our own car, and hopefully we can find a way to get one during our stay here. The biggest problem is finding the funding for it. Not being able to leave and not having a strong internet connection combine together to make life challenging. If we were able to have internet connection, I feel like I’d at least be able to connect to the outside world, even if I couldn’t get to it through transport. If I had transport, I don’t think I would mind not having a strong internet connection as much. Maybe I am complaining more about things that aren’t worth getting frustrated over. I know that I am learning patience through all of this; internet and transport are not an essential human need and if I go for the next year without having them all the time, I will survive and still enjoy and flourish in my time here.
One of my good friends often says to me when I’m upset, “Everything will be alright and work itself out” and even though I don’t like hearing it, it’s the truth. There is a time to grieve and to mourn and to be upset and frustrated. But there is also a time to realize that God’s promises are still all around us; hope and joy can be found in the hardest of circumstances. We have enjoyed welcoming two new members of our staff: J.T. and Danielle Hamilton-Slate who have moved here from Kansas to work with Shade. Last week we enjoyed helping to give them a traditional African wedding. They have been married for about 9 months, but it was fun to watch them go through the process of initiation (traditionally, the bride and groom have to go through a series of tests to see if they are “worthy” to be married) and celebrate with a big meal, entertainment, and dancing. Hannah and I were challenged to a dance competition with Vixa and Clifford, and had to dance in front of everyone while Mama Tembo and Jen judged! Unfortunately for Vixa and I, Clifford and Hannah won. After going through a long two weeks of preparing the center for students to move in and getting the office organized, we each met with Mama Tembo together and individually to finalize our contracts now that we are in Johannesburg and go through our three month evaluation (it seems like we’ve been here so much longer). Now, many of you know that I am an emotional person. I think it was a combination of the stress built up over two weeks and Mama Tembo’s very good comment that pulled the right heart strings that caused me to break down in front of her and Lucille during our meeting. She said nothing mean or offensive, I just suddenly became emotional. However, after the meeting, I felt pretty good. For maybe the first time since I’ve been here, I felt understood and heard. Not that Mama Tembo didn’t understand or listen to me before, but I finally had time to speak with her by myself and let her know how I was doing. I am very thankful that I have a boss who will let me cry and try to understand me. After my meeting, I had a little chat with my co-worker Vixa who is very excited about this coming year. I realized that it’s about time that I stop seeing the negative little things around me and start getting excited too. I’m excited to work and live close to my co-workers that have become close friends over the past three months. I’m excited to get to know JT and Danielle as we work together learning what it means to work and live in a different culture from our own. I learned this week that I not only will be supervising the classes in the life skills department of the center, but I will also be able to teach some classes as well. I’m excited to get to know these students from all over Africa as we share our lives with each other. And perhaps most of all (though I am a little intimidated with this part of my job), I am excited to start talking with the leaders of the satellite projects, travel to visit them, and learn more about the world around me.
Originally, when I started to write this blog, I thought it would be a bit depressing and not as exciting as some of my others when I write about all of the great things in my life. I still decided to write it because I think that you all should know my real story, not just the read about the times when good things happen. I guess it didn’t turn out to be depressing as I thought it would be – I truly believe that God is with me as I write, helping me to see bits of light through the darkness. I feel that this has happened many times as I have been here. Don’t you just love it when God does that? I do.











